Just for Today
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
“To be gravely affected, one does not necessarily have to drink a long time nor take the quantities some of us have. This is particularly true of women. Potential female alcoholics often turn into the real thing and are gone beyond recall in a few years. Certain drinkers, who would be greatly insulted if called alcoholics, are astonished at their inability to stop. We, who are familiar with the symptoms, see large numbers of potential alcoholics among young people everywhere. But try and get them to see it!” - Alcoholics Anonymous, 3rd Edition, 1976, Ch 3 (“More About Alcoholism”), pp 33-4.
Just for today, if still I resist the First Step of admitting I am powerless over alcohol, let me heed the warning against comparing my own drinking to others whose drinking are more in quantity and longer in time. If I do, my desperation to find any excuse not to acknowledge my own problem has become pathetic. Nor can I expect youth to shield me from powerlessness. Nor can I find justification to continue drinking if I can say I don’t wake up every morning with a hangover or shakes that require a drink to calm them, or if I can say I have never spent a night in a county jail and faced a judge the day after because I was nailed driving drunk, or if I can say I have never been in rehab. All these are possible consequences of alcoholism; that none have happened to me does not shield me from the dis-ease of addiction. Today, I will not take anyone else’s inventory of drinking habits to minimize or justify mine; that I and I alone might be scared is enough to grab onto the lifeline that is AA. And our common journey continues. Just for today. - Chris M., 2012
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
“To be gravely affected, one does not necessarily have to drink a long time nor take the quantities some of us have. This is particularly true of women. Potential female alcoholics often turn into the real thing and are gone beyond recall in a few years. Certain drinkers, who would be greatly insulted if called alcoholics, are astonished at their inability to stop. We, who are familiar with the symptoms, see large numbers of potential alcoholics among young people everywhere. But try and get them to see it!” - Alcoholics Anonymous, 3rd Edition, 1976, Ch 3 (“More About Alcoholism”), pp 33-4.
Just for today, if still I resist the First Step of admitting I am powerless over alcohol, let me heed the warning against comparing my own drinking to others whose drinking are more in quantity and longer in time. If I do, my desperation to find any excuse not to acknowledge my own problem has become pathetic. Nor can I expect youth to shield me from powerlessness. Nor can I find justification to continue drinking if I can say I don’t wake up every morning with a hangover or shakes that require a drink to calm them, or if I can say I have never spent a night in a county jail and faced a judge the day after because I was nailed driving drunk, or if I can say I have never been in rehab. All these are possible consequences of alcoholism; that none have happened to me does not shield me from the dis-ease of addiction. Today, I will not take anyone else’s inventory of drinking habits to minimize or justify mine; that I and I alone might be scared is enough to grab onto the lifeline that is AA. And our common journey continues. Just for today. - Chris M., 2012
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