Aug. 3, 2012 - Just for Today

Just for Today
Friday, Aug. 3, 2012

Just for today, I’m fed up - filled to the rim with those self-destructive, self-aborbed character defects like anger, self-pity and anxiety about what’s been said and done, and what’s ahead. And, today, I’m sick of carrying the garbage, the excess baggage that I acquired in my drinking days and may still be toting even without the booze. I want what the Program promises - if I work for it. That means, finally, getting out from under the ponderous weight of that chip on my shoulder, and letting go means letting God and working with the Program so as not to take that weight back. Even if in sobriety I can rationalize or justify whatever resentment and any other ill feeling I harbor for someone or something, the Program commands that it has no role in my recovery and, in fact, can derail it like a super-train jumping its track at 200 mph. The predictable outcome? Total self-destruction. I didn’t come this far this long to fall apart or to implode because of whatever self-destructive trap I set. Today, I need to know how it feels to be free of anger, self-pity, worry and resentment and, just for today, I’m fed up enough to get with the Program. And our common journey continues. Just for today. - Chris M., 2012